I recently read an article in a writers' magazine that said that until your family hates what you write in your blogs you really haven't "arrived."  Well, I recently learned that certain members of my family HAVE read my blog and do hate it.  Why?  Because they believed it was full of self-righteous lies.  Interesting....

I find that very humorous, because this blog is THE ONE PLACE where I am truly transparent and lay my soul bare for the world to see.  What comes across on this blog is my heart, warts and all.  (Not that a heart actually has warts!) But I know now know that I have "arrived" at the point where some can recognize that the person I was before my divorce was NOT the real me!  I had been blinded to who I was and who the Lord created me to be. 

I want everyone reading this post to understand me...hear me well...  There are some people who can, with every ounce of charm, deceive you into believing you are a certain person with certain traits and characteristics.  They can conive and convince and construe circumstances to affect their own agenda.  And the real kicker to this is that they do it under the guise of being helpful and loving.  Be not deceived as I was, dear one. 

I am out from under that demented control, but it wasn't until I found the unconditional love of a dear man, that I truly recognized the cloud I had been living under.  I am now free to discover truth for myself, not truth interpreted by someone claiming to be more intellectual and gifted than I.  I am able to look in the Word of God and see how the Lord views me, and I feel liberated!  I am enjoying the discovery of who my Lord is and how He interracts with me on a daily basis.  I feel free to express my feelings to Him and those around me because I will not be judged! 

My Lord is good - ALL THE TIME - and I am anxious to see how my life is turning around and becoming much like the beautiful butterfly and NOT living in the coccoon I had been sleeping in for 23 years.

Please do NOT misunderstand me, my dear reader.  I am not suggesting that there was no good to come in those 23 years.  God works ALL THINGS to the good!  He can take my trash and make it glorify Himself!  He can take my mistakes, hurts and even my sin, and turn them around for His glory!  PTL!!!  I may have made a mistake 25 years ago and trusted someone I had no business trusting in, BUT three lovely children were a consequence of that.  I am thankful the Lord makes beautiful what once was ashes!!!